so kiss me, like you miss me, coz I know that you do

Dearest beautiful gorgeous magnificent silky red peep-toes that is sitting by the corner at home,

I MISS YOU.

I really do. You're just sitting in the corner.
I feel like going home, grab you and bring you back here.
In Canada.
We have to come back to Canada.
My trip is not done yet,
I can't leave.
But to take you.
Maybe I will.

Aww, I love you, dear red shoes.
Don't let anyone you don't know touch you,
don't get yourself stolen.
I want to come home and put you on my feet.
You'll look gorgeous.

Love <3,>

I'll look after you

Shopping again? No kidding ! I've been shopping shopping and shopping. And it feels wonderful (: Of course it does, you're talking about me, the shopaholic.

I'm the one that beat both my cousins when it came to buying something. Not even an hour since I stepped in the mall, I got myself a bag. A stripey pink bag that I love (: But but, throughout the whole day, I'm just gonna get to the conclusion, I think my cousins bought more clothes than me. Family's craziest shopaholic, beaten. By guys, mind you. BOTH guys. It's unbelievable. But I believe it.

The mall was a three hour drive from Calgary, all the way to Edmonton. Well, it took us two and a half hours because of the smooth traffic. Not because of the way my uncle drove. He did not speed, I think. I was sleeping, I don't know. But hey, it's Canada I'm in, not Malaysia. You actually see cops by the roadside, catching people who speed, and other that do not wear seat belts. Seat belts at the backseat is a must here. I'm so not use to it.

We had an early start today, a very early on for me, I must say. I don't know why, but I could not sleep the night before and I stayed up until three in the morning. I woke up at half past six, it was crazy.

Still, I shopped. And shopped. And shopped. I had fun, really. Right now, I've bought tops, jeans and a bag. I'm missing shoes and I want a pair of Aldo shoes. Because they're really comfy and make me smile when I see the price HERE, in Canada. Not in Malaysia. I cry seeing the price of a pair of Aldo's in Malaysia.

Am I crapping? Oh, I know I am. But I feel happy (: Plus, Christmas is coming up people !


I did not want to post a Christmas tree. So typical Christmas reminder. So yeah (: I'm in the mood for more shopping for presents. And I think I need to get a lot this year. Maybe not, I don't know. I just want my Aldo shoes that my cousin promised me. Aww, I love him. He feeds me iced caps !

all for love, the Father gave

Another iced cap?
Why, thank you so much !
It was really nice of you, but yeah.
You didn't really have to get a huge one for me.
Haven't you noticed that it's cold,
It's really cold for this poor poor Malaysian girl
That gets hot sun 24/7, 365 days.
Thanks anyway (:
You rock !

you love me, you like her

This is so peer pressure. I haven't even watched the show yet. But everybody is posting all these pictures of Twilight. So I want to do it too ! (:

It's actually only for my own entertainment. I so freaking like the posters. It looks so magical.

But yeah, I'm no fan of Twilight. It's because I haven't been bothered to read the books. It was one particular Friday in school, when I just came out from a club meeting that I see EVERYONE holding a Twilight book. Most of the time, when you say EVERYONE, you're probably just exaggerating. But I'm NOT. There really was everyone carrying this book. I thought it was crazy.

Not to mention, the whole book idea came to Stephanie Meyer, the author of Twilight in a dream. wow. What at way to make to the best-selling list. I think I should put all my dreams in a book, hoping to make it a number one bestseller. I'm not criticizing her, I just thinks it's well... funny? This book, I wonder if it sold more than Harry Potter. I don't even read Harry Potter !

And through all these blogs about Twilight and all the screams I got from friends who are SO excited for the movie, I'm actually curious what is it that makes everyone just LOVE it. Truth is, after I finish reading my book, I think I'll borrow Twilight from the library to check it out. If I can find it. It's probably not there due to it's popularity. Let's hope I don't fall asleep reading it, just like what happened when I tried reading Harry Potter. Sorry, I'm just not into this kind of things. I love my chick lits. I did recently read a vampire series, it was interesting. I finished a book in a day. It's the Kissing Coffins series and I'm yet to read book 5.

For what it's worth, the libraries here are awesome. They have some really good books, unlike Malaysian library that I gave up going after one visit. They don't have Meg Cabot books ! Seriously, even though I haven't read a single one of her books, I think she's one good author, since her books are always the number one bestsellers. Here, on the other hand, you can find Meg Cabot, J.K. Rowling and even Stephanie Meyer. Needles to say, the Malaysian libraries should update their shelves. Reader's corner has more business than the public libraries.

I've just finish reading an Inside Girl novel. I know it does not sound... decent? Yeah, but it's an innocent book that's like any normal chick lit. It was not fun reading it, no suspense or anything.

This book though, is not quite too bad.


I think I did see it in a few bookstores. But when I started this book, I did not want to put it down. I read half the book in a day. I prefer Sophie Kinsella, though (: Being a chick lit. lover, Sophie Kinsella is a good one, on my opinion.

If you haven't read a book by a Malaysian author, try this one.

Oh, sorry. I could not get a picture. It's titled Sweetheart From Hell by May-Zhee Lim. She's 16, but she has published 2 books already. And, if you do plan to read this book, I'll alert you for the major major bimbo-ness. Just reading the back of the book, you'll know it's SO bimbotic, plus, her blog is bimbotic too. The book is great for self-amusement.

I don't know what's with this post, all about books. Yeah, I love books and can't live without them, but I've never been given the title ' book worm ' before. Still, I don't know what the conclusion is from this post. Do you?

I was fine, 'till 7.05

I just visited Carolyn's. It was a so happen kinda thing, because I decided to go through my link list. So yeah, first thing I see is a picture of Emily Wong, a fellow school mate who is just so sweet. Anyway. I scanned through the post and it they've known each other for 8 years, I think, already. So Carolyn went on to tell about how they both met. She said, it was the first day of school and it had something to do with pencils. And, boom ! I realized it's probably the same way I met my ' ex-best friend ' as we both call it, Soong Mei Shia (:

Sorry, I could not get a picture. I wanted to snag one from Facebook, and I realized Mei Shia does not have a Facebook. Then, I considered Friendster, and said no because it seems that Friendster has virus, so yeah. Scratch all that.

Anyway. Shucks, I typed a whole load and it got deleted. pfft. So, I met Mei Shia day one of Primary School. Or maybe not. At least Mei Shia said it wasn't, it was this 'test' thing that we had to take before the school semesters. Orientation, I suppose. And well, we all head off to class and I guess Mei Shia didn't expect anything so she didn't bring any stationery. My mum asked me to lend her one of my pencil. So there, one pencil for Mei Shia and we couldn't be separated since.

During that orientation, they gave a 'test', like I've said. And it was like easy-peasy until it came to this part where they put a few letters with blanks. Something like this,

a, _, _, d, e, _, _, _, i

Well, yeah. I stared at it and I was thinking,

" What's this? "

So, I quietly lean over and see what Mei Shia was doing. Turns out, they were asking for the ABC's ! So, yay yay, I wrote everything down. The same thing came out for the Math session, asking for numbers. I was smarter that time (: haha.

Until now, I don't know why we aren't best friends anymore. Maybe it was because we got into different classes after Standard 3. Which was not fair to me at first. When both our parents found out we were both in different classes, they just never ceased to tell us that we should continue being best friends. It didn't work out, I guess.

Above all this, I think we had an awesome time all those 3 years. At least I did have a really good time hanging out with her. For her birthday this year, I gave her a pencil and she gave me this questioning look and started laughing. But I also gave her a note, and I told her that I won't ever forget the time we met. Honestly, I wanted to get the exact brand of pencil that I landed her that day. Maybe I can remember the little small details that no one else can during a long time ago, but this, it's the one thing I just can't remember.

Oh yeah, I love this girl. I can go on and on about how the times we spent together, but maybe some things, should just be our memories. There's not much speciality to it once everyone knows, right?

all that I was meant to be

Have you watched Sweeney Todd? I have, just a little. Not the whole show, not even half, I think. But I want to finish the show. It features Johnny Depp, the ugliest person on earth and I don't know how so many people can like him. Anyway. This show is a musical, so it's like, Grease, High School Musical and Hairspray. Basically, you already know what to expect through the scenes of the show. Songs, songs and more songs.

And like this young gentleman, whom I thought was a girl, specifically, Keira Knightlely. Well, maybe it was like the ' all the mind ' thing, since when you say ' Johnny Depp ', I think ' Orlando Bloom ' and ' Keira Knightley ". You get the picture, don't you? So, this guy had a solo. He sang this song called Joanna. And it was like,

I feel you, Joanna,
I'll steal you,
Babble babble babble.

Needless to say, the song has been inside my head ever since I saw that show last week. Thanks a bundle to you, Joanne, for singing during the show. It's like such a lame song but it's stuck in my head.

So one day, when I get the chance, I'll be watching that show again. It was really good, the first quarter of it was good, anyway.

Oh, the show is about a barber, anyway. That's all I know.

feel it on my lips

This is just to make it look like I updated my blog. I actually have nothing to update about.

get back

Oh, yay ! I can upload pictures now (: Only a few, though. I don't have the rest.

Anyway, we celebrated Ashley's birthday recently. She's such a doll.

The cake looks bigger than her. hahaha.

And it's honestly the most darling cake I've ever seen !

The house was at the farm house area. So the view, it was amazing !

And it was a long day that day. The party started at 11 am but we thought it started at 12 pm. The family was planning to leave at 11.30 am for the party. But it was fine, the microwave had a problem so we weren't late for food !

That night, I celebrated Christmas. haha, no, I didn't. I just attended a Christmas party with my aunt and uncle. It was a company's dinner and they had cute door gifts that sat on the table. So much of a door gift. Anyway. Meet my date.

No, nothing is going on between us. Shaunna's really nice.

Actually, I don't have much to post. I make it sound like this is a major big update. It's not.

But but, look !

I painted my nails (: And I didn't buy that many colours, neither does my aunt own that many colours. Instead, I was being 'Asian' like everyone says. I went to a make-up shop, I think it was called Sephora and used the testers. It was fun. Actually, I was with another Asian girl, Audrey. And we went around the stand painting our nails. I love the purple one, especially. haha.

I've been acting VERY Asian since I came here. It honestly is, my everyday thing, isn't it? Like, when you go to a restaurant and they provide you a huge bowl of sweets by the counter, you don't take ONE sweet, you grab a few. That's what I did. I took three. And my friends, they happen to be Asians too, they started teasing me.

Like, one of them went,

" You are soooo Asian ! "

And I'm thinking, " Hey, you're one too ! "

The other one said,

" You don't need to go shopping for Halloween sweets anymore. "

And I'm thinking again, " Three miserable sweets ain't Halloween. "

So, I guess, I AM really Asian. Poor me, getting laughed at ): But it was funny. Kristine and Joanne, they're nice people (: I'll get them back some day, I just don't know when.

I got over you

1. What is your CCA?
* I honestly do not know what CCA is.

2.Would you fall in love with a guy older than you?
* I'll fall in love with any guy that's meant for me, I don't see age.
At least I think I don't look at the age.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
* I hate school.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
* Shop? And make myself busy.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
* Anyone that's meant for me.

6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved?
* Both. It's gotta be two ways if you want love in the picture.

7. List out your favourite bandeeeaaa...
* I don't know.

8. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
* sings, I fake a smile so he won't see.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
* Yes, of course ! There are plenty, really (:

10. What makes you angry?
* Things that don't go the way I planned it to. Most people don't know that because, well, I can hide it up. When impatient people bug me, it makes me pissed off too and what more, I'm not all that patient either.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
* I'll be 24 and living my life? I don't know, my future really is walking down the red carpet doing the queen wave. HAHA ! Yeah right.

12. Who is currently most important people to you? Family? Friends?
* grammar mistake in the question !
Family, definitely. They top everything else.

13. What is the most important thing in your life? Being happy always?
* Nope, not really. If you're just happy in life, there's no life there. Life is like a storybook, it's gotta have up's and down's and adventures. Being happy always, you'll get bored of it in no time.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
* Married but poor. I have love and well, poor does not exactly mean money-less, just you know, not much of money. I'll have love and food, hopefully, and I guess I'll be happy (:

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
* No, I won't share my space with him. hahaha. It depends.

16. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
* I have a feeling I did this tag before.

17. Would you forgive & forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done to you?
* I'll try and someday, I think I will. No, I'm pretty sure I will.

18. What do you want to tell the person you love?
* You need strong hands to carry my shopping bags, so go workout.

19.What is the one thing you regretted most in your life?
* I definitely did this tag before.

20. You have only 1 more day to live, would you confess to the one you love ?
* I'll do what I do best. I'll write him a note and tell him everything. I think.

Miley Cyrus - Goodbye

I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I wanna to forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then
Put it down
'Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I wanna to forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked 'till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one that you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye

Saying goodbye
Oh, Goodbye

I didn't want to post this song, but I wanted to post it (: I keep listening to it, so I decided to post it.

goodbye

Who would have guessed that I have absolutely nothing to blog about when I'm halfway around the world exploring new things? I haven't posted up pictures except a picture of Nick Jonas *melts* and some rubbish.
Yeah, I've got nothing to blog about, but why am I still here sitting in front of the computer, doing something that I have no idea what to do about : blogging.
Let's just say, I'm trying to think of something to blog about while witting some other crap.

WELL.

The conclusion is, I still can't find anything to blog about.

mandy always laugh when I act stupid

When you see this, the first thing you'll do is roll your eyes and think,

" Here she goes again, all Nick Jonas "

Well, something like that, at least.

It just bugs me.
It really does.


When you go to Google image search,
and type in Nick Jonas, you'll find multiple pictures of,

Miley Cyrus
Selena Gomez
Kevin Jonas
Joe Jonas

Seriously, I asked for

Nick Jonas

not these other people.

pfft.

And, I think I have almost all the nice pictures of Nick Jonas here.
Isn't that great?
It's so awesome.

I want their latest, newest album.
It's actually a few months old already.
And it features this song by Nick Jonas,
A Little Bit Longer,
which is also the album title.
But Nick wrote that song song when he was in the hospital
being diagnosed with type 1 diabetes.
hahahaha.
I watch too much Ellen.
And it's a nice song
but downloads sometimes sucks.
So happen that that song sucks when I downloaded it.
No matter the multiple times I download it,
it still isn't good.
So, I want the original one !
And and,
even though I have all their songs from this album,
I want the original one too.
haha.

You can get this in Malaysia, but but
it has this sign at the bottom of the album cover,
a pretty big one, actually.
Big and annoying.
It says,
MALAYSIAN EDITION (flag)
or was it
(flag) MALAYSIAN EDITION
?
Anyway, it's annoying.
And it spoils the front cover.

If I get a chance to buy it,
I will.

Or,
there's another option.

YOU buy it for me !
It's on my Christmas wish list (:

If you happen to know anyone that is gonna buy it for me,
and you wanted to buy it for me,
there's always their first and second album too (:
Where the downloading sucks.


I probably won't get any of it.
hahahahaha.

God's unshakable truth

I so wanna be there
):

as he goes left and you stay right

I got tagged by Mariam. But, the language here isn't very good. Trust me, I didn't pick the words here. bleh.

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
Loves;
-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.

1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Over joyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Deluging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch

Dear Michy,

I don’t really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped outside of Chicago and I saw you carve your initials into the crazy monk. I’m sure you’re man enough to understand that I get turned on by garbage men. I’m returning the couch cushions to you, but I’ll keep you collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember Oprah Winfrey imitations. Greetings to your frog Leonard.

Loves,

Serena.

P/S: You are so lifeless, french kisser, Mariam.

colours of the wind

White
Red
Yellow
Green
Blue
Purple
Pink
Brown
Orange
Teal
Grey

I never wanted you to leave, I wanted you to stay here holding me

I remember when,
You used to lift me up in your strong arms.
You'll make me pretend I was an aeroplane,
That I was flying way up high.

I remember when,
You used to sing.
Or you will whistle sometimes,
In a tune that we all wanted to sing along to.

I remember when,
You used to tease me.
About the littlest of things,
That could bring the biggest smile to my face.

I remember when,
You fell sick.
And I sat there in tears
Because I could not do anything.

Do you remember when,
I asked you to take me on your strong arms,
For an aeroplane ride,
But you were too weak.

Do you remember when,
I asked you how you were,
And you said it did not matter,
Because you only wanted to know how I was.

Do you remember when,
You used to ask me how it would be without you.
My only answer was,
Tears.

I'll remember when,
You would go to the ends of the earth
Just to make me smile,
Just to make me happy.

I'll remember when,
You left me,
In the cold, in the rain,
But with a smile on my face.

I know that I was such a fool, but I can't live without you

It finally snowed ! haha. So jakoon, I know. But I haven't seen it snow before, so, whatever. It's really beautiful, out there. All white, where the cars aren't there, that is. After the cars run on the snow, it's all black chunks. I don't have pictures, because my awesome brother used up the battery and didn't bring it along when we went out. But, all you have to do is take a look at those postcards things. It looks exactly like those pictures. Or if you go to a electronic shop where they sell those televisions and they show all those scenery things. It's something like that and really beautiful. It's just cold, for one thing.
Since it's Sunday today, I went to church. And since my aunts and uncles are Catholics, we went to a Catholic church. And since my brother and me come from a different group of Christians, we weren't exactly familiar with the things they did. We didn't know the hymns they sang and some of the order of service were different. Basically, I'm just happy I got to worship in my own heart. God's everywhere anyway. Also, I noticed that the crowd in church wasn't that big. Not like mine, where over a hundred people come to church every Sunday. Here, it's less than a hundred. What more, I hear all these countries have one of the biggest populations of Christians (I think?).
Overall, I'm having fun. Though I'll be missing two of my biggest end year events every year. Girls' Camp and Vacation Bible School. I'll miss it all. Vacation Bible School is up this week and if I were there, I would join the music team, dancing away. I don't mind this different experience. But I can't help missing these activities.
I told my mum that I got a new boyfriend. He's bald, black and has tattoos. He's so handsome bla bla bla. She wanted to get me the next flight home. haha. I don't, obviously.
And and, I got a pair of trainers ! Pink and black, trainers are so hard to find in my size back in Malaysia. Yay meee !

The end of the world it seems, you bend down and you fall on your knees

Leela sped all the way to the park. She parked and started looking for her friend, Tracy. She spotted her right away, the lean body sitting by the pond, shoulders shaking heavily. Leela quickly ran over and sat down next to Tracy. Five minutes later, Tracy looked up and her face was wrinkled from all the wet tears, eyes so red you can hardly reconize them. Tracy lean her head on Leela's shoulder.

" Dearie, it'll all be fine. Someday, your mother will realize everything. But for now, you have me. Your lovable punching bag "

Tracy looked up. She couldn't stop a few tears down her face again and a small smile. Leela knew how to cheer her up. All the time.

They knew each other when they were nine years old. Yeah, they bonded real well and were best friends since. They both loved pink which concludes into liking Barbie Dolls. Most of the time, they both knew things that no one else knew about them. The greatest things to the smallest things, the most painful things to the most cheerful things.

Tracy did awesome in Math and Leela, well, she didn't. In fact, she hated Math. Just bfore exams, Tracy helped Leela with the Math. And Leela, she didn't get much, really. A hard to teach girl, most of her best friends would say.

That day, when Tracy had called Leela up, crying over the phone, they quickly agreed to meet in the park. Leela wouldn't leave Tracy to cry. Not her best friend.

" Leel, you know exactly how to cheer me up all the time, you know that? "

Leela shrugged. " That's what I do. I'm your best friend, remember? "

Tracy smiled. She gave a big bear hug to Leela.

" I don't even have to tell you anything ! I feel better already. You rock. "

" You don't have to say anything because I know what happened already. I can read you. "

" Oh yeah? " , Tracy challenged. " What happened, then? "

" Trouble with your mum. Duh. As usual. And I think I know what she did and say as well. "

" Okay, okay. So you do. Thanks a bundle, bestie. "

" No problem ! You know I won't leave you crying here. I'm always here for you. You know that, I told you that a million times. "

" And I told you the same thing a billion times. "

Leela and Tracy got up and walked around the park. The cool breeze dried Tracy's tears up in no time. When they reached their cars, Leela reached over to give Tracy a hug.

" Don't have a second thought when you want to call me, okay? Pick the phone up right away. "

Tracy laughed. " Yes, Ma'am. "

" Take care and get rid of that redness in your eyes. Tony won't like you anymore if he sees you like this. "

" Sure he won't, Leel. You just want him. Admit it. "

" Na-ah. I don't. "

They both laughed.

" See you soon, Trace. Loveeee you ! "

" Aww, love you too, girl. Thanks so much. "

" No worries, honey. Anytime "

if I were a boy

Oh, this isn't fair. At all. I'm so tired and my aunt's like,

" Don't go to sleep, you won't be able to sleep tonight, then"

Okay, I won't sleep but waait. Guess what?

She 's sleeping on the chair across from me. She's the one suffering jet-lag, not me. I can sleep at any time I want. She, on the other hand keeps getting up at 4 am.

Let me sleeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Hi mummy (: If you are asking which sister of yours is doing this to me, it's Helen Ee Ee. Ee Mah encourages me to sleep so that I can stay up longer at night.

We had a party today (: I met this cousin and that cousin and another cousin and I hope I don't loose track.

There was Tylyn, Ryan, Maddie, Jaddie, Hayley and Jillian. I think there was more. I forgot who they were.

But there was this whole lot of people and I only stuck with my aunties and the 'old people' as they call themselves. All of them wanted me to hang around with my cousins friends but I didn't want to because, I guess I already know we don't have much in common.

I got attacked by a pack of kids during the party, also attacked by a fat pig. The little kids, they tickled me until I couldn't laugh anymore and well, you know how I am when I get tickled.

At least some of you will know how I am. I laugh all the way to tears.

After bullying my 'oldest cousin' that couldn't stop bragging that he was the oldest, who wants to be old? He's so weird |: Anyway. He picked up my legs and dragged me all the way to the living room. When everyone saw that, they just stopped talking and I couldn't stop laughing. He grabbed my legs and pulled me down the sofa after that. I landed on my bum ):

Mummy, time for you to scold him, or something. You can come here and torture him, pleaasee. I can't do anything. He's too strong.

I got kicked out of my oldest aunt's house today ): So I get to stay with my second aunt with my two cousins that are in front of the computer playing games or in front of the television, playing games.

They have Wii !!!! (:

I hide all the bruises, I hide all the damage that's done

I can finally feel the strain in my legs and arms from all that dancing. gaah.

Did I say I would be going for a dance class? Anyway. I did. We did jazz dance and it was awesome. My dream, haha. To go for dance class (:

I think the strain also comes from playing Wii. You know what that is? It's a game. Where you can play tennis, baseball and others. You use a remote with a sensor to hit the ball or whatever you're supposed to hit. I got dragged to play it and now, I'm addicted to it. It's fun. haha.

I miss home. It's been almost a week and I want to be in my bed. Especially since I left Snowy my stuffed bear at home so that I could bring Towers and Sneaky. I miss Snowy ): And I miss my room and everything at home.

I especially miss my family ):

I don't want to go home but I want to be at home. Oh, you get the theory.

Remember when I had that ice cap thing? And it froze me so much? Well, guess what? I'll be having a bubble tea tonight which is in like slushie form. Or in other words in the Iced Cappuccino or Slurpee form. Blah. Gonna freeze again. But I like finally talked my cousin to taking my brother and me out so, why not? heheh.

Freeze freeze freeze.

I'm gonna go play Wii ! wheeeeeeeeeeee

there will be an answer

1. Each blogger must post this rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write about ten thing about their blog and post these rules. You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .



Ten random facts/habits about me.
doesn't have to be bad, right?

- I absolutely loveee Nick Jonas. I think he's gorgeous. He doesn't know I exist. sigh. So dramatic


See? He's just gorgeous *melts*

- I didn't mention that I downloaded all the songs from the newest Jonas Brothers album. And I tried downloading the whole of their other albums too. Addicted? Maybe.


- I carry my mp3 everywhere I go, whether it's a 5 minute walk or drive and back. It's really precious and special. It contains a whole load of Jonas Brothers songs and 2 songs by Nick Jonas (:


- On Facebook, I took this 'Which Jonas Brother For You' quiz and guess what? I got Nick Jonas ! Actually, I cheated. When they asked what's my favourite ice-cream flavour, I ticked 'cotton candy' because I KNEW it was Nick Jonas's favourite. I actually took a sample of cotton candy flavoured ice-cream in Baskin Robbins and it was the sweetest thing I've ever tasted. bleh. Don't tell anyone, though (:



hey, 'Don't Tell Anyone', that's a Jonas Brother song ! hahaha.


- I think the 'Selena dating Nick' and 'Nick dating Selena' thing is just a rumour.


I mean, eww.

- I'm listening to a Jonas Brothers song. 'Can't Have You'. It's a nice song (: Actually, I listen to JB songs almost all the time, seeing the number of JB songs I have. Even if I shuffle the songs.

Have you heard 'Lovebug' ? (:


- I collect posters of Nick Jonas, only because a friend of mine keeps buying magazines and giving posters to me. I don't hang them up, though.


- I want to watch that new Disney Channel series (or was it a movie?) featuring the Jonas Brothers called J.O.N.A.S.


Actually, I want to watch Hannah Montana now. Too bad it's on at night.


- I don't know why so many people likes Joe Jonas better than Nick Jonas. Nick Jonas s hotter.

Oh, I'll totally back off, don't worry !

When I think about it again, it's fine if everyone likes Joe Jonas more. Less competition, haha (:

- I think Nick Jonas should have been given more scenes in 'Camp Rock'

And Demi Lovato is just so fake. pfft.

Blog, oh blog.

- It contains a number of pictures of Nick Jonas. On my post and by my side bar.

- It also contains a number of pictures of my silky red peep-toes.

These red shoes, if you didn't know or maybe, forgot. Which is impossible. They're gorgeous, no?

- This blog also contain a bundle pictures plus memories of my daddy (:

- I enjoy posting lyrics of songs that I absolutely love and songs with lyrics that are heart-touching *sniffs*

- My blog is 8 months old.

- When I'm bored, I will update my blog like 3 times a day. Or when I know that I won't be posting for a long time, I'll post a number of posts so that my blog looks alive. I like my blog. haha.

- Since I listen to music quite a lot, and I love music, all my blog titles are song lyrics as well as the titles for my side bar add-on's.

- My link list, with the names of my friends are all upside down. If you didn't notice.

- I want to eat Quaker's Chocolate Chip granola bar now. It's upstairs in the kitchen and I'm in the basement.

That was random.

- Oh right, my blog is usually posted with random stuff. Or my posts can be on about 10 different things. sometimes, I feel like being random (:

Taging
- Anis
- Mariam
- Keith
- Gosh, I hate this.

you said forever

Secondhand Serenade - The Last Song Ever

I wish my life was this song
'Cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
And never have to cry
I'd show you how I feel
Without saying a word
I could wrap up both our hearts
I know it sounds absurd

And I saw the tears on your face
I shot you down and I slammed the door
But couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The way that I feel tonight
So down so down
I pray I can swim just so I won't drown
And the waves that crash over me
I am gasping for air take my hand
So I can breathe as I write this last song down

And I saw the tears on your face
I shot you down and I slammed the door
But couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The broken glass... your moistened skin
Was everything, was everything

And your broken voice... was quivering
You're everything, you're everything

Scream at me make it the best I've ever heard
Laugh out loud I know it sounds absurd

Scream at me make it the best I ever heard
You're everything, you're everything

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?
(Yeah...)

and I still shed a tear, every once in awhile

Miley Cyrus and Billy Ray Cyrus - I Learned From You

I didn't wanna listen to what you were sayin'

I thought that I knew all I need to know

I didn't realize that somewhere inside me

I knew you were right but I couldn't say so

I can take care of myself, yeah, you taught me well

I learned from you that I do not crumble

I learned that strength is something you choose

All of the reasons to keep on believin'

There's no question, that's a lesson, that I learned from you

We always don't agree on What is the best way
To get to the place that we're going from here
But I can really trust you, and give you the distance,
To make your decisions without any fear

I'm grateful for all of the times You opened my eyes

I learned from you that I do not crumble

I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson
I learned from you

You taught me to stand on my own

And I thank you for that
It saved me, it made me,
And now that I'm looking back
I can say
woooaaahhhh
Hmmmm... Hmmmm... Yeah

I learned from you that

I do not crumble

I learned that strength is something you choose

Something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
Keep on believin'
There's no question, that's a lesson that
I learned from you

On this day, I'll think of you the most, daddy (:

I'm not moving

Tanya hit 'send' on her email page. An email for her cousin Nikki all the way in Australia. During the holidays, Tanya would be flying over to meet her cousin after 10 years. She couldn't wait.
So many years ago, Tanya's cousin came to the States to visit. They were young then, not even old enough to attend kindergarten. They had so much fun, but the family didn't come back after that. The only connection - internet.
They both used it really well, they would email each other birthday notes, jokes and different things that each of them go through. Tanya always saw her cousin as an outgoing person, so full of jokes and fun. She wanted to meet her and sit down to have all sorts of girl talks (:
In Nikki's recent email, she had said that they would go do lots and lots of shopping, have fun at her birthday party and all sorts of things. It boosted up Tanya's excitement.

Two months later, Tanya was in the plane, on the way to Australia to meet her cousin. She landed late at night and it was understandable that Nikki was asleep. The next morning dawned and Tanya went down to see her cousin. Upon seeing her, Tanya got excited and wanted to give her a hug. All she got was a tired 'hey' and Nikki's back. She was shocked and the first thing that came to her mind was, 'what?'. After that, Nikki left the house to do a project done at a friend's. So much for the girl talks and shopping.
It wasn't till Tanya's second day in Australia that her cousin and her had a conversation which were nothing that Tanya expected. That night in bed, she lay down and thought about all that had happened between them. She couldn't take it, her cousin, the one cracking jokes over the internet, didn't seem to wanna talk. Tanya thought it was just because she was shy and wanted to give it a few days to see what it was like.
A week later, Tanya came to a conclusion that Nikki wasn't the speaking type, but she could express so much more when she was writing. Though all that Tanya expected had came crashing down, she knew there was till a bond between her cousin and her. Maybe someday both of them could really have that girl talk.

Oh, it's freeeezing here. Well, I've been here for a few days already and I quite like the place. It's really clean for one thing and the air is crispy but not so crispy for me. haha. I've only gotten to do a few hings when my aunt and uncle was on leave. We drove around and all and went grocery shopping and shopping for sweaters and all that. A tee cost $5 here and I grabbed quite a few (: Not like you care. haha.

Canada had their Rememberance Day not too long ago. It's a day where they remember the soldier that had fought for them all the way to peace. So, everywhere, in the shopping malls and grocery shops, they have this little poppy pin, you donate a little money and take the poppy pin to wear on your coat. I saw a video on the television where they showed how it was like in the war, dead bodies and all and I nearly cried. The background music suited the video so well, it was a good one. Anyway, I got myself one of those poppies. Peer pressure, everyone had it on, I wanted one too ! haha.

Everyone knows that my two-month plan when I come here was to get into my cousins school to see what it's like to school there. Well, too bad for me. The school had new policies, about security or something so it's a no-go for me. I don't know what to do for two months now. Watch the dog, perhaps?

give me a higher love

three names you go by:

• Serena
• Na
• errr...

screen names you have had:

• tomato queen
• serena smiles (:
• serena the bomb ! (:

physical things you like about yourself:

• my hair
• my eyes
• my elegant big feet !

three physical things you don’t like about yourself :

• *silence*
• *silence*
• *silence*

three parts of your heritage:

• Chinese
• Chinese
• Chinese

three things that scare you :

• the dark
• 'roaches
• hairy bugs, ewww

three of your everyday essentials :

• my Bible
• right now, it's my few sweaters
• Rachael's boots do me well

three things you are wearing now :

• yoga pants
• Nike tee
• Reebok sweater

three of your favourite bands or musical arts, currently :

• NICK JONAS
• The Script
• MPS family (:

three of your favourite songs, now :

• Sorry - Jonas Brothers
• The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
• All These Lives - Chris Daughtry

three things you want in a relationship :

• loyalty
• lots of trusting attitude
• honesty

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you

• colour of eyes, eheheh
• clean cut chest, AHAHA !
• height

three of your hobbies :

• reading
• blogging
• sleeping !

three things you wanna do really badly right now :

• keep warm
• walk the dog, maybe?
• listen to music

three careers you’re considering/considered before :

• lecturer/teacher
• writer
• actress? haha

three places you want to go on vacation :

• Malaysia
• Malaysia
• Malaysia

three things you want to do before you die :

• be a mother and before that, find my perfect guy (:
• Live the life that I need to live
• Have fun (:

five people that you would like to take this survey :

• Lydia
• Eunice
• Keith
• Jasmine
• Ivan