got no reason, got no shame

I forgot to say out loud, how beautiful you really are

I don't even know what to say.

It's like mixed emotions. Somewhere inside I'm happy you get to go somewhere else, to finally continue your studies. Another part is sad, but there's a part that's pulling me down from the pit of my stomach, making tears fill my eyes.

Heck, I'm going to miss you. And like you didn't know that.

So this is probably just a repeat of what I already wrote to you in that letter.

All my life, I've never slept alone. Maybe once or twice, the most probably two weeks. And during that two weeks, I'll either run to Mummy's room or make Aunty Lilia sleep with me. Well, you're gone now, and I still have the option of snuggling in with Mummy, but really. It doesn't feel the same.

I want to play the "There's a robber coming, stick together !" game with you again.

I want to hear you say "WYP GAD WCD !"

I want to recall all our fun times, laugh so much we cry and tell people lame jokes.

I want to get mad at you for barging into the room and running into the bathroom before I can.

I want to hear you complain about how I read books so slowly and that you've already read 5000 books and I'm still on the same one.

I still want to be the famous Lim sisters in Girls' Camp together.

I still want to share the room with you, no matter how much I complain on wanting to have my own room.

I still want to go shopping with you, picking out the prettiest things and making fun of people while people-watching.

I still want to pay gazillion bucks to watch a chick flick with you and cry together because no one else would do that with us.

I still want you to come home with a King William Chocolate flavoured Boost drink just for me.

I still want to fight, shout and go all emo at each other.

I still want to camwhore and make Mummy go mad watching us do all that.

I still have this long list of things I want to do with you.

Maybe I'm being over-dramatic, but 2 years without you, I just don't know what I'll do.

But I guess we all don't have to worry much (except Mummy, that's different *paranoid*). Everything is going to work out fine for you, we're all so proud of you. Yeah, we're sad, it feels like the numbers in this house is just decreasing everyday. But hey, it's all for something better, right?

It's going to be two long years, I still don't know what to do but I'm sure things will turn out to be absolutely fine.

I loving yous, sistas !

the chances I'm taking

I promise you people that I had something in mind to post up.

But I forgot.

Sorry.

too early to say goodbye

The Legion of Extraordinary Dancers.

I can't wait for the movie.

I blame you, Winnie Wong.

baby let me love you

High School drama.

Tell me you love them.

Fantastic 6.

Hah.

I never told you

I totally dig this picture, HAHAH.

Happy Birthday, Azfar ! :D

Ten things I love about Azfar.

1. He has a great sense of humour. He knows what a joke is, and that makes him easy to talk to and to have some fun with. Everyone loves talking to Azfar, no kid.

2. If he had to listen to me ramble about how sucky things are for a whole day, he would. He wouldn't leave me hanging, especially without some sort of solution.

3. He's a guy with curly hair. What more is there to say? Don't you love guys with curly hair? I love guys with curly hair, HAHAH.

4. He is one that can actually withstand me for years now. I don't know how he does it, I know that every single one of my friends has been highly annoyed with me at one point of time. Azfar? Well, not that I know of anyway.

But seriously, who CAN hang out with me for forever?

5. He can do whatever he puts his heart to. In other words, when he's passionate about getting something, he'll get it in the end. I don't think he'll ever let his dreams just disappear in front on him, he'll try his very best to do just about anything.

6. He is different in his own way (isn't everybody?). But he doesn't ditch doing the things he loves just because no one's doing it, he'll do anything he likes his own way, and seriously. How many people can you find like that?

7. This dude is always nice. And as his best friend, I tell him all the time that sometimes, he's TOO NICE. It's not very good to be TOO NICE, am I right? :D

8. Everyone loves Azfar because he can give you a whole different way to think through your problems (doesn't seem like the right word, but I think it is). It may not seem like a big thing, but hey. Sometimes, it helps you find your own answer, instead of asking an answer from someone else.

9. He always encourages people, no matter what, no matter who (he's TOO NICE, you see). But I guess it really does lift people up sometimes, and hey. That's a good thing, no?

10. Probably the only one that can make me smile all the time, even on a bad day.

That's why he's my best friend.

♥

where the grass is really greener

So, Nike came to my school and they say it's for a run blablabla but it's obviously to promote their stuffies. In this case their shoes.

I signed up with a bunch of friends hoping that hey, whatever it is, maybe I'll just get to do some running and who cares about the Nike's they're gonna loan us, I don't need them.

Heck, I don't need them.

But it was one of the most AMAZING (I think I've been using amazing a lot?) shoes I've ever used. We were the first school in Malaysia to ever try out their newest Lunar Glide +2 shoes, so they were all brand new.

I still do not need them.

It is okay to want them, though? Because they were absolutely comfortable and I probably felt like Forrest Gump, wanting to run all day (except a friend today kinda didn't have the stamina, so I kinda didn't run?)

Well, honestly, I didn't think that I would fall for this form of advertisement that Nike obviously so cleverly thought about. BUT I DID. I can't believe.

I do not need a pair of Lunar Glide's.

It IS pretty, though, isn't it? Especially this pink one. Heeee :D

and all of the things that we've gone through

I sent her off yesterday. It was... I don't even know what it was. And I'm trying to say something about the whole time I was there, but I can't think of any.

Ten things I'll miss about Ting Li Hui.

1. Her smile. Every morning, I'll arrive to school late as usual and she'll be there, then she'll smile and say, "HI !". Even the times when she just looked at me and not smile and say, "Hi", then stare at me for a minute, she'll jump and be excited after that and tell me what happened the night before.

Something like that.

2. Her laugh. Her laugh, it makes me laugh. And I don't know how to talk about her laugh?

3. The way she tells me about the latest gossip. HAHAH. She gets so excited, sometimes I don't know what she's talking about.

4. The way she gets all sway-y when she's talking about her crush. It's unbelievably, I don't know, cute? hahah. She's suddenly all shy and smiley, I don't thing I could even make her smile like that. Heee.

5. How she's so determined to do something. And I've never seen her fail in anything, she's just always worked hard for all that she wants. It gives me the boost to do what I want too (:

6. Her absolutely cheerful aura. She makes everyone around her smile, just by being there. There isn't one person I know that doesn't like being around her :D

7. She doesn't care what people say about her. I mean, I know that everyone says we shouldn't care either, but have you seen the way people react when they hear something bad about them going about? Li Hui doesn't even bother, she just shrugs it off. And I have no idea how she does it.

8. Her artsy nature. heheh. She could make something so plain and boring look amazingly gorgeous. And she always knows how to dress things up, so that it looks better. I won't be surprised if you're a designer one day, dear. hahah.

9. The fact that she's loyal to her friends. Even if she's somewhere else now (and without Facebook !), I know she won't forget the friends she has been with most of her school life (:

10. I'll probably just miss her presence the most. I feel absolutely lonely, without a girlfriend. And yadayadayada. There's so much to say, like, how I could never EVER get used to the idea of her not being in school not playing tennis on Wednesday's. I can't believe it, I still expect to see her there when I arrive in school and when I go for tennis, I get pumped up before because I can't wait to tell her just about everything.

I was at the edge, I wanted to cry at the airport. Seriously. But I didn't. Because, I don't know. Because I know you said that you going away isn't suppose to be a sad thing.

Somehow, it feels like I'll never see you again, and EVERY SINGLE DAY, I have to remind myself that, wth, I'll be seeing you in no time (: And I really can't wait for that day.

I'll miss ya. No, wait. I already do. So much.