I'll stop the world and melt with you

Meet BumBum and DumDum (((:

old school

I wish I could do the pirouette perfectly without practice. And even with practice, it's still so hard. Maybe there just isn't enough practice.

And it's so easy to say 'practice makes perfect' but face it. How easy is practice anyway? Sure sure, if you have the diligence yada yada yada you'll do fine. Then, how easy is it to have the diligence too?

But it pushes you off limits, you know. Practice sometimes makes you see and realize bigger things that what you want to make out if everything. And that part, it rocks.

I love dance.

not wrappin' this in ribbons, shouldn't have to give a reason why

I SO wanna be there.


And I blame you, T. For making us all love AJ Rafael.

I have a friend divine, who walks with me, and journeys by my side

Dearest Daddy,

Happy Father's Day, daddy (:
We all miss you.

Imagine, if you were still here, we would go out for fancy lunch, and you won't have to pay a cent. Or, we'll do a normal lunch and go out for fancy dinner. Which ever way, doesn't matter.

But all these years that we had dinner and lunch and birthday dinners together, right now, it feels so different without you. Like there's something missing, because, really, you are missing.

We wish you were here. I wish you were here so bad, so that everything will be normal.

I'm sure that I'm not the only one that thinks about you everyday, dad, and I'm sure your family here too, aren't the only one's that think about you constantly.

I wonder what it's like, to be up there.

But anyway. Back here on earth, we've been learning what life's like without someone you love so much, how things can change without you realizing it, but obviously, I realized it. And so, it's all been a learning process and I still believe that all these things, happened for a reason. Maybe, this is the reason, for us to learn.

Happy Father's Day, daddy (: I love you.

Love,
your daughter.

the fear

Okay okay, I'm updating now, stop bugging me. I study, you know, unlike some people, hah.

Look at the picture and admire my photography skills. HAH.

cause love has no distance baby, no, not when it comes to you and me.

I never knew I could gobble up six pieces of bread in a day. Can you believe that?

Gaah, I've got a soar throat. School's starting, tell me if you're excited because I'm not excited and I don't see how anyone can be excited, please. It's school. Would you think straight?

I'm off for dinner, it's mummy's and aunty Lilia's birthday.







I can't wait for mine, it's in three months and two days time (:

I'll be your angel

Sorry, Leng. I just looked nicer in this jump shot (:

Here. I'm back. And, it feels SO good to be back, you have no idea. I had a, well, not an awesome time but pretty okay, I guess.

Of course, minus the moths, grasshoppers and other tiny insects.

The only thing I learned was how to loose in Monopoly. Oh wait, I loose in Monopoly all the time. But this was, Monopoly with credit cards, which means no flying around money, just a card (: How fun is that?

Shucks, screw everything I said. I actually have absolutely no mood to blog. But just so everyone knows, I'm back (:

I just want you

It's probably the last time I'm gonna blog for the holidays and I know everyone will miss me and I'll miss you too, really !

I'm off to Fraser's Hill, and I know there's nothing much there, but give me a break from that statement okay? I'll be missing everything here, computer, tuition - not that I really care, computer, Breaking Dawn, computer, no rice dinners and computer. I would say save me, but I actually don't mind Fraser's at all.

I want to go shopping. Boutique shopping.

showstopper

I don't know if you want to know it or not, but that Merry Cake thing, turned out the way it was supposed to be. With a little technical problem but yeah (: And it seemed that it tasted so good, but when my mum shoved it into my mouth, I wanted to puke it out. BLEEHH.

Sorry.

But everyone liked it, so unbelievable. And then again, I've never really liked eating anything I baked or cook. Oh wait, I can't cook. Instant noodles aren't counted.

Anyway. There were lovely blueberry cheese tarts today made my, hah, who else? ME. Oh, I'm so full of myself. My point is neways, I liked my cheese tarts.

*insert BIG WOW here*

yay me !

happily never after

Okay, maybe I'll give you credit for this after all, Jean. It's pretty awesome (:

The Piano Teacher

Music has always been the theme of my life.
Ever since the tender age of four, I had been squatting over the little toy piano salvaged from a warehouse sale, pressing hard on each key to hear its soft tinkle.
At the age of six I began to demand piano lessons, so that I could make music like those "big people".

My piano teacher, Aunty Pik Chu, met me at her door, with a wide smile plastered over her face, I wasn't impressed by her modest appearance or the house she lived in, till I stepped into the music room. Pulling my grubby six year old fingers from the immaculate keys, she gently shut the lid and taught me my first lesson, dirty hands headed straight to the washroom. Instruments and other people’s items were supposed to be treated with care and respect.

I had expected piano lessons to be glamorous, full of song and melodies shaking the roof. How bitterly disappointed I was to see Aunty Pik Chu laying out an array of theory books for me to complete and to learn from. I evaded doing my homework as long as possible, coming up with every possible excuse to explain the blank pages, the careless mistakes. Aunty Pik Chu quietly guided me into learning how to take responsibility in whatever was entrusted unto me. I scraped through my theory exams, passing but barely.

Throughout my eight years of piano playing, there wasn't a moment in which I didn’t get impatient. I lost my temper a few times in the music room, banging on the ivory keys to show how frustrated I was. Aunty Pik Chu allowed me to express myself. Slowly but gradually, my anger dissolved into turbulent feelings which I let go by sifting them into the fine strands of music and mixing them into the melodies, Aunty Pik Chu nodded in approval as I let my feelings flow into my fingers running across the piano. I learnt patience, and I learnt self-control. And Aunty Pik Chu hadn’t said a word, she just sat back and did what every teacher did, allowed the student to discover different things, and in the process, growing.

Aunty Pik Chu was a teacher like no other, she led me to the piano and allowed the music to speak to me, correcting me when I went wrong and suggesting how I could do better, all these without even seeming like she was teaching. But I learnt, I learnt alright, I branched out to other instruments, letting my creativity reign. Aunty Pik Chu was constantly by my side, watching me grow up from the innocent six year old who knew nothing about the eighty-eight black and white keys to the fourteen year who could quote Tchaikovsky beats. Music pushed me on to greater things, and Aunty Pik Chu taught me how to harness that and use it well. I wouldn’t have been much without music, thank you, teacher, for making me who I am.

Oh, and guess what? I found our old picture together !

And I think we threw out the attempting pout picture (:
Don't you just love me? Get you parents to arrange a meeting, reaaaaallly !


I think she'll have a better chance winning that short story contest, don't you think so, Fafa? (:

How come the idea of me dancing just makes everyone laugh?

you have stolen my heart

SECRET # 1
Who was your last Facebook message from?
Winston Teh (: ahahaha. He was trying to figure out who I was and I refused to approve his friend request until he finds out.

SECRET #2
Where was your display picture taken?
Canada ! (:

SECRET # 3
Your relationship status?
single. (:

SECRET # 4
Have you ever lost a close friend?
I guess, in a way, but not a crazy tragic way.

SECRET # 5
Whats your mood right now?
About an hour ago, I was cranky and annoyed. HAHA. Now, I'm just being weird, because I am weird (:

SECRET # 6
Where do you wish you were right now?
Somewhere where shopping can be done.

SECRET # 7
Have a crazy side?
Maybe a little too crazy? Oh wait, overly crazy, I must say.

SECRET # 8
Ever had a near death experience?
Yeah yeah. When my sister kicked me in the butt. Or let's just say, the numerous times she did.

SECRET # 9
Something you do a lot?
Read, but not so much lately.

SECRET # 10
Angry at anyone?
Not angry, no. More like, annoyed.

SECRET # 11
What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
The prison gate in front of me. haha *inside joke*

SECRET # 12
When was the last time you cried?
You know, that day that I cried.

SECRET # 13
Is there anyone you would do anything for?
No, I think people should do things for me because I'm a princess. HAHA.
Not exactly anything, but to a certain extend, yes.

SECRET # 14
Who or what do you think about when you are falling asleep?
I would think about anything or anyone random of my mind, and then there comes the part where I start to imagine things until I fall asleep (:

SECRET # 15
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Anisssss (((:

SECRET # 16
What is your favorite song?
It changes from time to time because when I like a song, I'll listen to it until I feel like puking (: haha.

SECRET # 17
What are you doing right now?
I was actually making this cake thing and I think it's the biggest failure ever (next to the marble cake, but hey ! That tasted so good apart from it's disorientated form). It's cooling down now and I hope it tastes fine as well? You can't blame me anyway, I haven't heard, seen or tasted this cake before. hmph.

SECRET # 18
Who do you trust right now?
Myself, of course ! (:

SECRET # 19
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? Whats it look like?
Mizuno, it's spaghetti strapped white and pink (:

I don't know why they call it spaghetti straps. It sounds weird, don't you think?

SECRET # 20
What are you excited for?
I don't know, Breaking Dawn?

SECRET # 21
Last thing you purchased:
I was about to purchase an uber-nice dress and I don't know how you measure stupidity, but I'm so stupid for not getting it.

SECRET # 22
Describe your life in one word:
awesomepossumupanddownindescribableunpredictabledaybydaybutIloveit.

HAH.

SECRET # 23
Who are you thinking of right now?
More like what - my cake?

SECRET # 24
Where did you last take a trip to?
Tuition, grrr.

SECRET # 25
What are you listening to?
Realize by Colbie Calliat.

SECRET # 26
Who was the last person who gave you a hug/kiss ?
My mum, I guess?

SECRET # 36
Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 6 days?
Nopeee.

Tagging : May Lim Chin Ai.

the tracks of my tears

I set my clock at 7.30 am last night. In the middle of the morning, I woke up and wondered why my clock hasn't rang yet and the wall clock showed 8.30 am. I jumped out of bed because tuition's at 8.30 am just when my alarm clock rang. Then I looked again and realized, oh, it's actually 7.30 am.


I don't know, you tell me if I'm ready to be fifteen or not.

and the tears are falling

It's JUNE.


oh no, it's June.

stay close, don't go

Happy Birthday Mari-yum !

My achi ! (: You're a year older now and marks another year of our friendship ! I know we've only known each other for two years, but I still love you <3

But I don't like the fact that you look so good in pictures, no wait, you look good all the time. No matter what face you're pulling. I wish I looked that good all the time. HAHA. And you're exceptionally bubbly and happy all the time. Sometimes I wonder if you're ever sad. haha.

Hope you have an awesome possum birthday dear (:


Oh, you haven't replied my mail, Maaarrr.

I want it that way

It's been awhile since I've done tags (: ahaha. don't worry, Tasha, I'll do yours soon.

Copy and paste and put your own answers in. The purpose of this is to get to know your friends better and it's so much fun!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope (: But I was supposed to be name Stephanie and then my parents thought it was too long of a name, so I became Serena ! If you think about it, people would have a shorter mane to call me if I was named Stephanie, like Steph. I can't be called Sere or Rena now, it's weird, no?

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
The last time I yawned, which was about 10 minutes ago.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I think it looks a little bit messy because it's a tiny bit cursive but everyone compliments my writing (: They say it looks like printing O:

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
Anything's fine by me, because I'm always hungry when I get back from school and absolutely can't wait to have lunch (: Oh, minus the spicy food, please.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
They're gonna be named Liam and Diane. That is, when I DO have kids (:

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
That depends on what kind of other person I'll be (: HAHA. I'm overly crazy and ALWAYS laughing at nonsense. Everyone thinks I'm weird.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Oh, hahaha. YES, definitely.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Oh yeah, I do ! Is that a good thing, or not? Because I heard that people who get their tonsils removed has to eat really soft things, like ice-cream ! haha (:

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?.
Azfar, you said we'll go bungee jumping together one day !

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Oh, I don't know (: hahaha. I used to like Trixies, then there was the Winnie the Pooh Hunny thing. But in the pass years, I've only eaten KokoCrunch. I guess I'm not a cereal person?

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope. I guess I'm much too lazy (: But I double-knot them anyway, so that they won't get untied when I'm wearing them.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
I may look overly-obsessed with ice-cream, but I'm not, actually.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their shoes, probably. HAHA.

15. RED OR PINK?
Pink or red. pffft. They're both awesome.

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm impatient, and I don't like impatient people too. I know, it's like taking a tiny piece of wood out of someone's eye when I have a log in mine.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Daddy daddy daddy ):

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Maybe (: It'll be fun.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Black shorts and I'm bare-footed (:

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Hurt - Christina Aguilera

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Pink pink pink (:

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Mariah Carey's Lucious Pink.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Anis (:

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
Gymnastics - it is the bomb !

27. HAIR COLOR?
Black with a little of brown when you look at it at a certain angle (:

28. EYE COLOR?
Brown. Did you realize that around the black of your eye, there's an outline of midnight blue? It's so cool.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope (: I have perfect vision, how awesome is that ? No, I take that back. My vision's screwing up ): All for reading Twilight way past bedtime.

30. FAVORITE FOOD
I somehow always hate it when this question pops up.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
hahaha. Scary movies can be a little funny, but I like chick flicks (: Which means, happy endings.

32.LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Romeo and Juliet. It's the weirdest show ever.

33. WHAT COLOR OF SHIRT DO YOU LIKE TO WEAR?
I like pink, but doesn't mean I love wearing pink, even though you DO see me in pink most of the time (and it's only because people like buying me pink clothes). I like wearing blue, because I somehow think that it makes my eyes sparkle, and then I think again, a whole bunch of people has brown eyes and blue does not make their eyes sparkle. Maybe it's all in the mind.

I hate blue anyway.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
I've seen winter (: And I think it's awesome. Summer will be hot hot hot, don't you think? It's like being in Malaysia a year long.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
This reminds me of Azfar.

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND TO?
Shopping (:

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Football.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Breaking Dawn and everyone knows what book that s.

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
This question makes me wonder what a mouse pad is for. Obviously a mouse is on my mouse pad.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Bedtime Stories !

42. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
I don't know ?

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Canada (: Awesome possum place.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Everyone does (:

46 WHERE WHERE WERE U BORN?
In the hospital.

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK
None actually.

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
What other? haha.

Tagging:
Tasha
Darshee