A feeling hit Clara's heart as she read through more lyrics on Shane's blog. Every he posted lyrics, her heart dropped and it felt as if he were speaking right at her. As if the lyrics were written for her. At times she thought that it could not be, but in a blink of an eye, another song pops up and hits her again.
Clara and Shane were the sweetest ever. They were together for a year before they broke up. Months after that, they got back together again. She loved him and he loved her. They had so many plans and memories. Clara could not leave them. Two years later, Clara ended it. She could not bear the way Shane acted around her, like he did not know her apart from the endless conversations they always had online. She knew she did not love him anymore, the day she left him. She was certain not to ever go back into his arms.
Still, it hurt her when reading lyrics, when chatting to him. At times, Clara would have that urge to say 'I love you' to Shane while chatting. She does not love him, but out of the routine they always had. Clara had endless nights of thoughts, just about him, about how she feels for him and how she was treating him. Through it all, there was one answer : a friend.
Clara was not sure if Shane still loved her, and she, had no reason to ask him so. He has always been kind and sweet but not the type at showing his feelings out front. After their two years break up, Clara saw a change of attitude in Shane towards her. He was ever so supportive. Now, he just mocks her to her face and that cuts right through her.
Of all this, she knew that with or without him, she had to continue her life. She loved him once and not anymore. It did not matter to her if he still loves her, because then, she still would not want to be with him.
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