but you're already on your way

I went for a funeral tonight. I know, I know. Not exactly something you'll want to blog about, but hey, I can't help it.
So, the lady who passed away, it was actually my first time going for a lady's funeral, I used to go by her pew in church to shake her hand and say hello. When I was younger, I remember one week when I wore the baju kurung to church, she spoke to me in Malay (: I wasn't even in kindergarten yet, I think so I didn't understand what she said. I just smiled.
Her husband, I really look up to him. He passed away a few years back. I still remember when I attended his funeral. It was the first funeral where I actually cried. When we singing his favourite hymn, I couldn't help but think about not passing by his pew anymore to say hello or shake his hand. He had the warmest smile ever. During that funeral, I was much too afraid to go by his casket to pay my last respects. Now, I totally regret it. I wish I had gone to see him for the last time.

The way this couple's children reacted, my heart when out to them. Not everyone knows what it's like to loose someone, but you can say I do know. One of the daughters happen to be a teacher in Subang Utama. She's really nice and she's been judging the inter-school choral speaking competition ever since my sister was competing in primary school. When I went to her school this year to compete, I met her. She told me that the night before, she was actually wondering if I'll be there, since judged my sister. Whaddya know? I was there (:
I think death isn't a thing to be sad about, instead something to be rejoiced for. All these not-seeing-my-friend-again thing is only temporary. In fact, the one that leaves has no more suffering. It's always good to look at the bright side (: Right now, you should appreciate everyone that's around you, whether you're close to them or not. One day, when they're gone, you will probably regret it. Don't.

Anyway. I picked up all my guts today to pay Auntie Sarah Philips my last respects. She looked so peaceful and calm. I'm really really happy that I got to knew her, she was a blessing, making my younger days filled with smiles and all. She's an awesome woman.

* Hello Ma (: I know you told me before I started at the computer to not get distracted since I'm suppose to be working on my Geography work. Well, I'm done already, you just don't know it (:You just told me to go sleep. haha. Have fun at work ! (: