I'll be there for you

Laura Laura Laura. I really really want to be in you class now, because so far, that's the only Jazz class I can find in this whole wide world. Which makes you the best dance teacher around (:

I found out that that awesome coat fits me and looks good on me on the last day I was there. That was frustrating.

Everyone claims that I bought too much clothes while in Canada. I say not. One can never have too many clothes, or even shoes and bags. And since it's holidays and we've all got nothing to do at home, we decided to take a walk in the malls. Just walking, no buying. It works fine with me, the no buying policy. Thing is, they won't even let me see. They drag me away from my favourite store and they leave the store the second we all go in - just so that I'll be out faster. It's not very fun, doing window shopping with them. It kills me.

My mum keeps asking me if I'm done with my homework. After I answer yes, she asks me if I need to study. Before saying no, I think about it. I know I have to study, the thing is, I don't want to. So, I decide to ignore that question by making unrecognizable sounds. It could mean yes, it could mean no. But yeah, instead of studying things like History and Geography, I'm reading a story book (:

So far, it's pretty good. About a girl, who after a Hollywood star passes away, finds out that that star is her mother and bla bla bla. You can imagine the story.

Okay, SAMMY - where are you? I've been waiting all morning since you didn't tell me what time you were coming. I was up so early ! And you're not here yet? Ohmygosh, hurry up.

can I have this dance

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

So lately been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall on us all
Then between the sand and stone,
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know, just quite how
My life and love may still go on
In your heart
In your mind
I'll stay with you, for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

over my head

It being Chinese New Year, I was off to my grandparents house again. Am I not happy my uncle decided to go for a buffet lunch instead of lunch at my grandparents house? Oh yeah, I'm so happy.

Tonight, we'll be going to my uncle's place for a change because I protested having dinner at my grandparent's. I also bribed my aunt with a cake. I think I'm good.

Even though it's Chinese New Year and all, teachers are still taking this opportunity to give us a stack of homework. They don't excuse we Chinese from this pile of work either. I'm not being racist and if it weren't for this one particular teacher, I wouldn't have posted this too.

We were complaining about the amount of work a certain teacher gave and she merely told us it was Chinese New Year and we had a week off. Some of us said we had visiting to do, no time to even check our school bags. The answer was simple : " Ala, Tahun Baru Cina je la. Kalau Hari Raya tu, cikgu faham la. " ( It's only Chinese New Year, if it were Hari Raya, I would understand. ) . The first thing that came to my mind was, I do not want to do my work. Because of this teacher, because of what she said. I don't think it's fair that this teacher is taking sides. And the story would be much more interesting if you knew her background. Go figure.

On another thought, I think the song 'Fall For You' by Secondhand Serenade is really good for contemporary dance. heh.

Can you believe, I can't find a single dance studio around Subang Jaya area that offers Jazz classes. The closest to Jazz I can get is Funk, and I don't even want to do that.

I'm bored, really.

permanent

Missy Higgins - Where I Stood

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she would love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she would love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you thought me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she would love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood

not over it

For all these years, you were here, with us beside us. We would go out and have fancy dinners on your birthday. We would have a cake just for you. You would eat your favourite dish. We would be together as a family.

Happy Birthday, daddy (:

It's been different since you were gone. One member missing, it's so different. We went out and had cakes but it didn't feel the same. It was awkward, but we tried to show mummy we had fun. We love you and we all miss you here, and I personally want you back. To come back home, if that is ever possible one day. I love you, daddy.

for you, for the rest of my life

Three days and I'm counting.

We all know in three days time it's gonna be Chinese New Year. What everyone doesn't know is, it's gonna be daddy's birthday in three days (:

Yup, the first day of Chinese New Year happens to fall on daddy's birthday. How fun is that? I'm pretty much happy that school doesn't have to come to my mind during daddy's birthday. It didn't have to come to my mind last year either. It fell during the weekend and we all went out and bought a piece of cake each.

That was awkward yet, it was a good way to remember daddy. Behind that escalator sat Ivan Goh and his family. heh (:

for you, I will

Ciarra (: She asked her mother where May jie jie and Serena jie jie was. The mum told her that we've gone far away, nearer to her grandmother. She asked her mother to call us through the computer (:

School has been a total drag for me. I've been mounted with this load of homework, most of them from the week I missed out. It's awful, and plus, I'm going through jet-lag, it wakes me up at 4.30 am every morning. I'm drained out by the weekend and I'm looking forward for a little rest when I find out there's replacement classes. I didn't want to go, really. But my mum made a point when she told me that I've already missed a week of school. So, another early morning. And another early morning for church.

Even now, I'm starting my second week of school and I have to catch up on so much. I'm pretty much left behind. My teachers are bugging me for homework from the week before. I wish I was there on the first day of school, so that I wouldn't be left behind.

Then again, I didn't mind being in Canada (:

So while I'm trying to do all these work, I'm thinking about how laid back school is in Canada. How passing up assignments a week late doesn't affect anything. That's so mellow.

And I have to take a big big test. Whoopy. Everyone is coming up to me, asking my age and when they find out it's big exam year, they get so excited and remind me. Like I don't know I'm sitting for PMR this year. One day, I want to answer someone like this,

" I'm taking PMR? Ohmygsh, I didn't know that ! "

I went shopping again ! YAY ! But but, it wasn't shopping for things I want - instead things I need. That doesn't sound interesting anymore, does it? Well, it doesn't to me.

I've officially fallen head over heels for tea (:

My god mum asked me today what I wanted to do after high school. I told her I had at least a year before thinking about all that. Her answer was simple. Time goes by fast. Which got me thinking about what I really wanted to do. All my life, I've always dreamed big about what I wanted to be, just in the end failing to master it all. Everyone knows that I love writing. And some people knows I want to be a writer too. But, maybe there's something else for me, something else that is meant for me, instead of writing. Who knows? I can't decide too fast either.

It's hard, not to have my biggest supporter in life to help me out now.

like I love you

Again I'm here,
Again in that position.
Being trapped in your eyes,
Being tongue-tied around you.

It's not fair -
I had enough,
I don't want anymore of this
I want to give you up.

But you,
You keep being you.
Making me star-dazzled,
Making me cry.

I want to let go,
But I don't know if I can.
It's time to put you away
But I know I can't.

the little things

I thought being in a top class would be everything - good teachers and good company. Was I wrong? Yes I was.

If the last class now has the better teachers, like teachers that can actually say a word of English and teaches Math or Science, I want a transfer.

So, I may not have much friends around my class, and to a certain point, I don't really mind. It helps me focus a little bit more. But, sometimes, when you need help, when you need a little perking up, feeling awkward doesn't really help.

But maybe there's a little bit to rejoice for. I got the toughest teacher for my Bahasa Melayu subject. No, of course we won't get sneak peeks in her massively hard papers, but hey - she could be a lot of help. Who knows?

Because of jet-lag, I've been pretty much sleepy all day in school. I brought tea, to see if it'll wake me up. I think it helped a tiny bit, but not really. Then again, who cares?

I felt really left behind in class. We're on second topic for Math, my oh-so-favourite subject. Something tells me that my Math teacher isn't the best and isn't gonna help me at any rate. Yay her. Other than all that, I've got lots of catching up to do.

And since it's the new year, I'm looking around for different activities to take part in all year long. Oh yeah, so it is PMR year, yada yada yada. I don't expect myself to study every single day for this thing. Out of 6 days of studies, I think it's no biggie to give myself 2 days of something different.

Anyway, back to the topic of school. Let's say it was the worse first day of school ever. I took back my results from last year's finals and I found out I dropped tremendously from my mid-year. But I still made it to a better class. Still, I'm not happy with the results ):

So, since I was entirely lost in my class, guess what I was dreaming about?
Canada, together with all my cousins and relatives. Including this favourite cousin of mine (:

Also my very warm friend that accompanies me in bed every morning. And every other day when I'm home alone. I miss Mika ):

Madison and Jadyn, the second generation cousins that I've never ever met before. They're the sweetest ever.

My dance mates - I want to dance in the noisiest class again. I never got to say goodbye to you Joanne ): So here's to you (: We'll watch the whole of Sweeny Todd again one day :D

I've become a massive fan of Canada. Now, isn't that bad since I'm a citizen of Malaysia?

what I want

I want Canada ):