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Mummy took us to drink smoothies today after dinner, it was really good smoothies yumyumyum.

what if I told you

Hello sister.

Do you remember this?

I bought it for you for your birthday, back when you were crazy about stars.

I remember seeing it in the shop months before your birthday and I saw the stars and I really wanted to get it for you. I actually saved my money, RM15.90 to buy this for you. How great of a sister am I? Hahah. You wore it after I gave it to you and one day, it broke. It probably made me sad to see it broken than it did for you, hahah. Anyway, it was an easy fix kinda thing, and because the money for it came out of my own pocket, I fixed it up for you. I remember buying it for you in Summit, in whatever department store that used to be there, and I was with Aunty Lilia. It was probably one of the moments that made me really happy, after I purchased it (:

Remember going to Malacca ALL the time and every single visit there (or anywhere for that matter), you would buy me something small. Like, paper dolls, which you would play with me, naming the doll, changing the outfit, the hair, laughing at their undergarments. Abandoning my Barbie dolls then. Hahah.

Can't wait for you to be back, big sister !

shoot across the sky

My brother brought my mummy and me shopping today. THANK YOU ! But he won't bring us shopping tomorrow. boohoo.

I think I like dogs. Huskies are the prettiest things ever. And Richard Gere is oh so handsome.

Every single person that goes on American Idol oh no Richard Gere just died. I am so sad.

Dr Seuss is a genius.

it's alright, you'll find a brighter day

It's December already.

And we all wish we could be with you, sister !

So that we can all be sour puss and not play with the snow because we don't want to be jakuns. Then Mummy will get excited and wonder over and over again why we aren't excited about now because we haven't seen REAL snow before, have we? She'll make us stand outside in the very very very cold weather without out jackets and tell us over and over again how nice it is while you whine about how cold it is. We'll have crazy shopping trips and visit our favourite store for about an hour while Peter stands outside sulks then complains to all our uncles about how nuts we are about La Senza. We'll also go charm all the uncle and aunties because we would refuse to call them by their first name without adding 'uncle' or 'aunty' in front (did you get that?) Then, we'll buy lots of Sidekicks because it's so cheap, we'll drink lot of Iced Caps and have Timmy's subs for breakfast everyday ! We'll buy Mummy's Christmas present, only for her to find out that it was cheaper after Christmas, so we'll play along with her to return the shoes to get them at a cheaper price. We'll be Asians and take a stack of napkins from the restaurant, or a few mints instead of one. We could fake my birthday again to get that very very yummy chocolate whatever with ice-cream, we could eat onion rings until we die or Korean potatoes till we're so fat and happy.

I definitely wish we could all be together for Christmas.

AND GIRLS' CAMP TOO.

I've never been for camp without you.

And and camp's not going to be fun without you ):

I'll be homesick, because you're not staying there with me.

Who's going to come to my luggage, steal my shampoo and not tell me,

then when it's my turn for bath, I can't find it, get hysterical because I don't have shampoo,

and when I find it, I'll be late for bath time and Quarter Mistress will thump my door real hard and make me get out.

What's camp going to be like without the Lim sisters eh?

WHO'S GOING TO TELL LAME JOKES WITH ME?

Who's going to exaggerate about our wonderful school toilet with me?

Loser.

HAHAHAH.

It's quiet and lonely without you.

<3

all I know is I love you too much

we'll always have that missing person.

We might be apart but I hope you always know
You'll be with me wherever I go

Hannah Montana - Wherever I Go

voice of reason

My daddy is the most wonderful person in the whole wide world (:

I miss you.

rest in the arms

Here we go again.

come take my hand

September is cancer month (it is?): In memory of every cancer patient, family member and friend who has lost their battle with cancer and in honor of those who continue to conquer it!

Okay. Yeah.

My daddy had cancer.

I believe he didn't loose to cancer. At all. Not even for one second did he allow cancer to take over him, he fought real hard

In the end? He got the greatest reward ever. Peace.

Heck, he didn't loose at all. He was too strong to loose.

My daddy's a winner.

Everyone should know that.

stones, heavy like the love you've shown

not afraid

Baking totally sucks without you.

I miss you.

until the end of time

one of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

Meet Polly.

Or at least I think she was called Polly. I can't remember. But when I saw her, I thought POLLY.

I don't feel like changing her name anyway.

Polly is by far, the oldest doll I've ever had :D

My mummy dug it out the other day.

I love Polly.

She's the only one that can make me smile while I'm crying.

She makes everything feel better, even if things aren't good.

I'll never ever throw Polly out.

Promise.

Her smile is infectious.

I know that it's a sew-on smiley, but hey.

It's waaay better than Mariah Carey's million dollar smile.

I absolutely adore Polly.

Today, I brought her out for dinner, carried her into the shop,

sat her down on the chair next to me.

She was happy, you could tell.

Polly is now the love of my life,

the most important thing ever. EVER.

I forgot to say out loud, how beautiful you really are

I don't even know what to say.

It's like mixed emotions. Somewhere inside I'm happy you get to go somewhere else, to finally continue your studies. Another part is sad, but there's a part that's pulling me down from the pit of my stomach, making tears fill my eyes.

Heck, I'm going to miss you. And like you didn't know that.

So this is probably just a repeat of what I already wrote to you in that letter.

All my life, I've never slept alone. Maybe once or twice, the most probably two weeks. And during that two weeks, I'll either run to Mummy's room or make Aunty Lilia sleep with me. Well, you're gone now, and I still have the option of snuggling in with Mummy, but really. It doesn't feel the same.

I want to play the "There's a robber coming, stick together !" game with you again.

I want to hear you say "WYP GAD WCD !"

I want to recall all our fun times, laugh so much we cry and tell people lame jokes.

I want to get mad at you for barging into the room and running into the bathroom before I can.

I want to hear you complain about how I read books so slowly and that you've already read 5000 books and I'm still on the same one.

I still want to be the famous Lim sisters in Girls' Camp together.

I still want to share the room with you, no matter how much I complain on wanting to have my own room.

I still want to go shopping with you, picking out the prettiest things and making fun of people while people-watching.

I still want to pay gazillion bucks to watch a chick flick with you and cry together because no one else would do that with us.

I still want you to come home with a King William Chocolate flavoured Boost drink just for me.

I still want to fight, shout and go all emo at each other.

I still want to camwhore and make Mummy go mad watching us do all that.

I still have this long list of things I want to do with you.

Maybe I'm being over-dramatic, but 2 years without you, I just don't know what I'll do.

But I guess we all don't have to worry much (except Mummy, that's different *paranoid*). Everything is going to work out fine for you, we're all so proud of you. Yeah, we're sad, it feels like the numbers in this house is just decreasing everyday. But hey, it's all for something better, right?

It's going to be two long years, I still don't know what to do but I'm sure things will turn out to be absolutely fine.

I loving yous, sistas !

I never told you

I totally dig this picture, HAHAH.

Happy Birthday, Azfar ! :D

Ten things I love about Azfar.

1. He has a great sense of humour. He knows what a joke is, and that makes him easy to talk to and to have some fun with. Everyone loves talking to Azfar, no kid.

2. If he had to listen to me ramble about how sucky things are for a whole day, he would. He wouldn't leave me hanging, especially without some sort of solution.

3. He's a guy with curly hair. What more is there to say? Don't you love guys with curly hair? I love guys with curly hair, HAHAH.

4. He is one that can actually withstand me for years now. I don't know how he does it, I know that every single one of my friends has been highly annoyed with me at one point of time. Azfar? Well, not that I know of anyway.

But seriously, who CAN hang out with me for forever?

5. He can do whatever he puts his heart to. In other words, when he's passionate about getting something, he'll get it in the end. I don't think he'll ever let his dreams just disappear in front on him, he'll try his very best to do just about anything.

6. He is different in his own way (isn't everybody?). But he doesn't ditch doing the things he loves just because no one's doing it, he'll do anything he likes his own way, and seriously. How many people can you find like that?

7. This dude is always nice. And as his best friend, I tell him all the time that sometimes, he's TOO NICE. It's not very good to be TOO NICE, am I right? :D

8. Everyone loves Azfar because he can give you a whole different way to think through your problems (doesn't seem like the right word, but I think it is). It may not seem like a big thing, but hey. Sometimes, it helps you find your own answer, instead of asking an answer from someone else.

9. He always encourages people, no matter what, no matter who (he's TOO NICE, you see). But I guess it really does lift people up sometimes, and hey. That's a good thing, no?

10. Probably the only one that can make me smile all the time, even on a bad day.

That's why he's my best friend.

♥

and all of the things that we've gone through

I sent her off yesterday. It was... I don't even know what it was. And I'm trying to say something about the whole time I was there, but I can't think of any.

Ten things I'll miss about Ting Li Hui.

1. Her smile. Every morning, I'll arrive to school late as usual and she'll be there, then she'll smile and say, "HI !". Even the times when she just looked at me and not smile and say, "Hi", then stare at me for a minute, she'll jump and be excited after that and tell me what happened the night before.

Something like that.

2. Her laugh. Her laugh, it makes me laugh. And I don't know how to talk about her laugh?

3. The way she tells me about the latest gossip. HAHAH. She gets so excited, sometimes I don't know what she's talking about.

4. The way she gets all sway-y when she's talking about her crush. It's unbelievably, I don't know, cute? hahah. She's suddenly all shy and smiley, I don't thing I could even make her smile like that. Heee.

5. How she's so determined to do something. And I've never seen her fail in anything, she's just always worked hard for all that she wants. It gives me the boost to do what I want too (:

6. Her absolutely cheerful aura. She makes everyone around her smile, just by being there. There isn't one person I know that doesn't like being around her :D

7. She doesn't care what people say about her. I mean, I know that everyone says we shouldn't care either, but have you seen the way people react when they hear something bad about them going about? Li Hui doesn't even bother, she just shrugs it off. And I have no idea how she does it.

8. Her artsy nature. heheh. She could make something so plain and boring look amazingly gorgeous. And she always knows how to dress things up, so that it looks better. I won't be surprised if you're a designer one day, dear. hahah.

9. The fact that she's loyal to her friends. Even if she's somewhere else now (and without Facebook !), I know she won't forget the friends she has been with most of her school life (:

10. I'll probably just miss her presence the most. I feel absolutely lonely, without a girlfriend. And yadayadayada. There's so much to say, like, how I could never EVER get used to the idea of her not being in school not playing tennis on Wednesday's. I can't believe it, I still expect to see her there when I arrive in school and when I go for tennis, I get pumped up before because I can't wait to tell her just about everything.

I was at the edge, I wanted to cry at the airport. Seriously. But I didn't. Because, I don't know. Because I know you said that you going away isn't suppose to be a sad thing.

Somehow, it feels like I'll never see you again, and EVERY SINGLE DAY, I have to remind myself that, wth, I'll be seeing you in no time (: And I really can't wait for that day.

I'll miss ya. No, wait. I already do. So much.

letting you unravel me

I saw that she'd packed up everything that reminded her of you.

And I'm proud of her.

Because she's strong enough to do it.

It ain't your fault, no.

But hey, I am so glad that she had all that courage.

falling in

Peter the lion.

I'm the butterfly.

So we just got back from dinner, and he rushes upstairs for the toilet, as usual, seeing that we share the same toilet. So yeah, I expected him to be in the toilet. But he was behind my room door, the moment I stepped in, he jumped out and attacked me.

I screamed.

I love you, Peter Lim Eu Syn.

pretty visitors

If I were to pack up,
I would follow you to Canada, no doubt.
because I miss the place.

And honestly, I don't like the idea of sleeping alone.

can we pretend that airplanes in the night skies are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now

It feels like time sometimes just wants to make us pissed. And to do so, they go by fast. Too fast.

the anthem

Today, during dinner, my sister bit me.
And then, she tried to stuff a potato wedges into my mouth because I didn't want to eat it.
She tried to embarrass me in front of a friend that was eating in the same restaurant.

Later on, I spilled my drink on her. Accidentally purposely, but I spilled some on myself too.

I love my sister. And yes, I'm gonna miss you when you leave.
But right now, I'm saving all I want to say for your goodbye post.

Like you didn't know that was coming.